resignation

After Amadon had talked to his boss it has become very apparent that he will have a very difficult schedule to work around. So we have concluded that I need to put in my resignation today. I'm sad and nervous about it. I wanted to quit eventually or become flex but I wasn't expecting this so soon. But it's important to support Amadon's career right now and if I can't work around his hours then I will have to take a bit of a break and maybe I fill find something better. I think I'm going to go back to school now. I am TERRIBLE at quitting jobs. I'm very wishy washy and try to stay on the work schedule somehow. I, technically can even go back and work at my last job in DL whenever I would want to. I can only give a 2 week notice instead of 4 so I'm afraid I will lose my 8 days of PTO which I'm a little upset about to. We were going to use that to go on a trip but Amadon has a drill weekend and it's also Adele's birthday. What can you do? Maybe there is a reason for this. Maybe there is a path I haven't yet discovered and quitting this job will lead me there. I am SOOOO nervous. I don't even want to see my boss but I also don't want to burn any bridges so I am going to do this as professionaly and with as much notice as I can possibly give. Breath in. Breath out. I hope this is the right decision. But then again, what other choice to we have? Unless, I could magically find daycare that works around our hours.

ah-dee-koh!!!

So ah-dee-koh is Adele's favorite new sound. It is sooo cute when she says it. I found her a birthday book for a $1 today at the book store (75% off) that she loves. I was a little shocked when I looked at snowsuits. $50. I'm not kidding you. At that price I'd rather just wrap her up like a little taco with $50 worth of blankets and put a hat on her. Or check ebay. :)

Well things have been pretty hectic trying to get prescriptions filled from DL to GF and what not. I finally returned my breast pump today. It even had a dead spider on it. Yuck. I know. How gross is that. And how long do you think it must of sat in my closet? I'm terrified to even look at the bill. I'm praying insurance picks some of it up. But they haven't sent me a bill and I forgot about it. But I'm guessing I had it for about 6 months. 4 of which I never used. Ok, 3. I could probably say I used it for 3 months. Not that I wasn't intent on breast feeding. No one knew why I couldn't do it and by the time we figured out birth control and zyrtec don't mix she was starting solids anyway. But we had gotten 3 good months in. And then 3 months of trying.

Well, hopefully the hubby and I can get some quality time in tonight. Our schedules are always opposite with each other so it's tough to spend a lot of time together.

a walking munchkin

Adele stood up and took 2 steps completely by herself today. It was in the bathroom because she needed to be rightbesideme but it was the cutest thing ever. I'm so proud of her. Go Sweetie Pie!!!

the clothes nazi

I live in a string of townhomes that are two feet(literally) away from an apartment complex that looks identical to our buildings, owned by the same management etc etc. So on floor 2 they have washers and dryers (enough for everybody) that are really cheap to use. About $2-3 less than the laundrymat per load. So it just makes sense that we wash clothes there. Well, I bring a bucket of laundry in and this little old lady in a red suit very snobbishly asks if I live here. I tell her yes I do, I live in the townhomes right next door. She tells me I cannot use THEIR laundry machine and I need to use my own in my own apartment complex. I tell her we live in townhomes and there are no community washers and dryers, that's what THIS building is for because we are connected. She tells me some story about another lady that used their washer and dryer and wasn't suppose to. I told her I even had permission. She wanted to know from who. I told her I didn't remember the name, which I didn't. And then she proceeded to argue with me that I have my own washer and dryer in my building to use. Well, that would be a nice convenience, but I'm pretty sure we don't. I live here and if we did then why in the hell would I be walking over here. I finally just told her, "NO, we don't have washers and I'm not going to fight with you." and left. Come on, why the hell would you even care if I used one of the many machines you have on floor two, when I'm your neighbor with the same management. I mean our street number is on their door and not ours because we are connected. Grrr. If this lady makes me drives miles and miles to a laundry mat that charges me $3 per load, I will be so pissed.

a night of living hell and horny taxi drivers

Check out freecycle.org. I joined. You can get or give away anything and it's free. There's local chapters. I'm hoping to go garage sale-ing today if the hubby ever decides to get out of the shower. :) I have become an addict. There's just something about finding things in great condition for like a quarter that have me hooked. I could spend the entire day "shopping" and barely spent anything. It's like a guilty pleasure that I have no reason to feel guilty about.

Adele is crabby and fussing and it's driving me nuts. I know she's used to a bunch of people entertaining her. Thank God for Town House crackers. It's one of her favorite snacks. And yes, I even let her eat them in the living room. I can always vaccuum later. I'm sure there's a bunch of reasons why letting her get crackers all over the place is bad. And yes I could battle with her in the high chair but sometimes mommies just need a little sanity and I'll admit it. This is one of mine.

Well, last night was interesting. I had a shitty and I say shitty because I really mean shitty day at work. I was so glad to get out of there. Every muscle ached (and I'm typing this with a screaming infant tugging at me demanding to know why I could possibly be spending any time away from her, sigh, this is why living with your parents for a few months is not a good idea, this will take a lot of work to change) and as I joyishly galloped/danced/ran to the car I realized there was no car there. A hubby had forgotten to pick me up. So I waited and waited and waited and called and called and called. Finally, I decided to call a taxi. As I get in, this enormous man who I later found out used to be a bouncer in Missouri proceeds to tell me what a hot red head I am. Oh, great. Just what I need. So I shrug it off, change the subject, all the little tactics you use to get rid of guys like this. Well, that didn't happen. After hearing way too much sexual and inappropriate conversation I was ready to bolt out of that car. He was even giving me a "break" on the meter here and there even though I didn't need him too and proceeded to tell me about girls who will do anything (ahem and I won't go into this but I mean anything, and after visualizing these types of things I think I will have nightmares all week) for a free taxi ride. Although he has to still charge them but they can do whatever they want to. Um, ick. I kinda get this whole classy broad type of speech of what I am. Then I find out that he lives near me. Then we get lost. Then he flat out asks me if I ever take this taxi service frequently because if his boss or coworkers heard of anything he told me, even if I just joked about it, it would not be a good situation. I agree and talk about how I'm married and need to get home and how this 300 lb man has absolutely no reason to be angry with me over anything and how because I'm married (thank God I had checks to support this claim) I can't get involved with him and I just pray he has no other motives in mind. I get out of the car, he wants my license, I find enough change for the fare and call it a night. And pray to God he forgets who I am, where I work, and where I live. No matter how turned on he gets by red heads. I hear the hubby's story. He fell asleep. Then I tell him mine and he gets angry and wants to bash this guys face in and it was just one hell of a night. So I'm looking really forward to something fun and relaxing today so we can forget all about this.

Hey,Hey!

Settling in
Settling into forks and a new routine has been hard. But I know eventually it will get better. There's a list of little things that need to get done that is about a mile long. The days haven't been very nice so I couldn't go outside. I think I have a little cabin fever.

Sprechen die Deutsch?
I want to learn German again and become fluent in it. I think it would be nice to be able to teach Adele two languages. How I get started on this mission is beyond me. I think I will have to google and find a German pen pal. You really need to engage and talk in the language in order for it to really come. I wonder if I'd start thinking again in German. I did that early on in high school when I had my relatives come overseas and talk to me. After about a week I would think in German and when I spoke English a lot of times I would say German words or write in German. I think part of you really gets wired in your mother tongue.

Job Update
Amadon really likes his new job. It's going really well and so is our entire financial situation. I still have to talk to my boss to figure out what's going on with mine. I would like to stay working part time or even occasional weekends for a little added cash especially during the holiday season. In spring I want to go back to school full time.

Party Updates
I figured out invitations. I'm going to send photo ones. We're still debating where to have the party at.

first day at work

We're back in GF now. We had Vonage sitting at our door and some really good mail about how we're eligible for Medicaid which will help us transition into Amadon's benefits. I have good benefits but with how Amadon's schedule is I will have to see what my boss can work around with me and I don't have a really great feeling about it. I'll have to have that conversation tomorrow. I already got scheduled for a drill weekend that I can't work on the 14th of Oct. Oh, tomorrow is not going to be fun. However, at least I know no matter what happens we'll be ok and we even have benefits to fall back on for a month or two.

Adele's been walking with people helping her and we'll flip over a laundry basket and she'll use it like a walker. That's pretty neat. She's getting sooo big. I still don't know what I'm going to do for her birthday.

Today is Amadon's first day at his new job. He's pretty nervous so I hope he has a really good day. I know he misses camp. We got to hang out with Mccloud for a bit yesterday and he misses us.

Today I am cleaning, organizing, and hanging up photos.

a big Congrats!

a big congrats to the hubby!!!!

He decided to take that job with Stan's. He'll have a nice salary, good benefits, advancement opportunities and gets sent to school in Oct that they're paying for. So good job hun! I'm really excited for him and hope he likes it. Yeah, that means a year in forks but I've been thinking of ways to make it better. I'm going to write lots of letters, emails, and phone calls to friends and family. It'll be hard but I think worth it.

It's odd sitting at my own place. Very quiet. No phone. We're getting vonage in a few days though as we're moving back here.

I'm thinking of ways to decorate our place and organize it. The baby likes to tear everything down so I was thinking shelves and baskets might work.

I wrote a letter to get my financial aid reinstated which I'm nervous about (long story short, never drop 1 class even if you might fail it if you only took 2). I'm hoping to go to school full time this winter semester. I think I need a semester off this fall to get everything in order and get into a routine.

Well Adele's birthday is only about a month away so it's party planning time!!! I think I'm going to do it the Sat after the 11th at the Great Northern Building.I think it's a nice neutral spot for all our family members and friends so noone would feel awkward or hurt .

I'm excited. And nervous. Part of me doesn't want to get my hopes up but this really could be the opportunity we were waiting for. This could be the answer to a lot of things.....and we're going out to Seafood night to celebrate.

busy waiting

Wow, it's been busy!! I never knew waiting could be so busy. Well, Amadon has that job with Stan's. He would start the 16th of this month and get sent to school in October. They're still negotiating salary so cross your fingers that it works out. Camp is going really good for Amadon and we are torn a bit by job options. I think because we've hit some low points that it's really hard to take a risk again when things are comfortable now. I'm also big on having things in writing. Yeah, it's a bit pessimistic but when you've get things promised by employers that never occur and there's not a paper trail it's just not a good situation.

Ms. Addy has a cold and cough so has been fussy. She starting to say words. She learned the sh sound and pairs it with other sounds she knows, so guess what one of her favorite words is? SHIT! We're trying to just ignore that and get her to say other things like Pup Pup and Baby. Still no MaMa. Sigh. She just can't figure out that "mm" sound. She loves bike rides though. We got her a bike seat yesterday so we can go biking together.

I've been losing some baby weight. Finally, after 11 months!! I'm a dress size smaller and it's pretty exciting for me.

My grandparent's are starting to get a little wore out with our living arrangement. And it's kinda hard to shell out a nice chunck of money a month for a condo for your cats to live in as you're not living there yourselves. I wish I had answers for everything that's going on but it's still waiting, waiting, waiting. I don't go online much because of dial up but I'll keep you updated.