Happy New Year

Happy New Year!!! Here are some of mine and the hubbies resolutions

1.work out, get in shape and be healthy
2. eat healthier
3. go to church more, prayer together more
4. learn German
5. Finish my book and send it some publishers
6. go on vacation
7. make an effort to have date nights by ourselves (and set up a munckin date with Adele and her friends)
8. have an organized house, let go of any "stuff" that really isn't being used
9. start my beading business
10. learn guitar theory

and last but not least more kissin and less bitchin :) .

Well, I worked out again HARD the last two days and I feel damn proud of myself. Yesterday, all I wanted to do was nap while Adele napped but I dragged my lazy butt off the couch and worked out. I'm not going to lie. It wasn't fun. It sucks to work out when you don't want to but afterwards you feel great. We're still debating whether to invest in a treadmill or get a gym membership. I lift a lot of weights. It's hard to find a way to do cardio with it being winter and the baby but hopefully that will get resolved soon. I made home made chicken dumpling soup today. I called my Grandma for her recipe and it turned out great. It's also so cheap to make. This is going to be one of my top recipes for supper. I stocked up on grapes and bananas yesterday and they're almost gone today. I really found that if you pick good for you foods and have them all cut up and ready to eat and laying out on the counter then I'll snack on it before I snack on other stuff. It's kinda sad how much effort I need to get my lazy self to actually eat fruits n veggies instead of prepackaged sweets but I'm sure it will come more naturally the more of it I eat.

I'm still waiting on a TON of paperwork to fill out for different parts of the estate but I'm just not going to worry about it until it comes. I've been stressing and worrying over every little thing lately that I'm afraid I'm going to have a nervous breakdown. Working out, prayer and meditation, are helping sometimes. And so is just sitting down and telling myself (yes I'm a dork that talks to herself) how big of a problem is this-really? can it be fixed? if so how? what can I do about it today? If there's nothing I can do about it today, I file it away until I can and then try to forget it. If I can do something about it today if just to start tackling it then I try to do it instead of procrastinating and making it into a bigger issue. And really you need to just let some stuff go. that pile of dishes in the sink should be on the bottom of the to do list and if you can't find time to do it, then so be it. I think I'm trying to deal with my grief by staying sooo busy and wanting to perfect every little thing to try and find happiness that I need to just slow down and heal.