runnning out of steam

Yesterday, I took a break from working out. Lately, I've been so exhausted I can barely move. (not from working out, just in general) Maybe, it's anxiety. I think I might consider getting my thyroid checked if I don't perk up in a week or two. I know stress and hormones can contribute to feeling like that and so can a list of medical problems. It would be really hard to pinpoint it. I also need to check my diet to make sure I'm getting enough of what I need.

Today I started my food diary. Well I've started it a few weeks ago and there were a few days were I was pretty faithful with what I put in it but I never calorie counted. Yes, I'm counting calories, protein, carbs, and fat. And it sucks. I also don't plan on doing this longterm. The amount of calories I need a day to be at my ideal weight is 2400-3200. I thought that was insane. I did this long calculation at a health site. I guess when you run and lift weights you get to eat more. I remember when I use to just sit around it was 1600-1800. I am nervous to eat that much. But, I also know eating too little puts your body in starvation mode, your metabolism slows down, and all that hard earned muscle also gets eaten away. Eating 2400 calories is easy. Eating 2400 calories worth of fruit, vegetables, lean protein, and complex carbs is hard. I'm just sick of feeling so crappy. You're suppose to just have an endless supply of energy with working out and eating right and it hasn't happened. I must be doing something wrong. So I figured writing down everything I drink (maybe I'm too dehydrated, I tend to not drink anything around the baby as she will knock it over) eat, and exercise will if nothing else give the doctor or dietician a nice little manual to see what I've been doing on my own. It's really hard to go into an office and say "I'm really exhausted, can you tell me why?" when a lot of times lifestyle changes can help a great deal.

Adele and I went to the Salvation Army store yesterday and I found the cutest wooden, doll crib that actually rocks side to side. Adele picked out two curly haired dollies that she wouldn't put down no matter where we went. When we got home she rocked her babies, and put blankets on them. It was the cutest thing ever.

I tried to do some Valentine's day shoppings but didn't find anything. I did however find some finger paint so we are going to make homemade valentines and have our own candlelit dinner at home. I think we are going to go for seafood.

Today, I am cleaning house. It's a disaster. It seems no matter how much I clean, it just keeps it from getting worse. A little person just follows me around and undoes everything I do. It's very frustrating. Especially laundry. Oh, I hate laundry. She unfolds everything I fold and scatters it around the house and by the time we're done with the "NO!" and the tantrum it takes 3 times as long to refold everything and go through the tantrum steps a couple more times before she gets distracted with something else.

I am off to start my day.